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Posted by everythingisnothingbuteverything on February 25, 2018
fuck that
there is a way
i have said
i am tired
but really just fed up
with an overtaxed
sympathetic nervous system
holding all the negative energy
of our collective trauma
conversations have finally started to change
and this is allowing me to
grab this moment
and put words together
in ways i have never been able to until now
i have felt like i have been writing
the same lines
the same pain
for so fucking long
trying to find a voice
that has been shut down
and shut out of the most important of conversations
a healing is happening
voices are coming out
the reality that my pain
is your pain
is our pain
is finally emerging
the truth of a culture
so far in denial
of its disregard
and indifference to other
is becoming more obvious
me too, you too
for so many now
it has become
us too
now to bring this to my daily awareness.
stepping into,
that which is difficult, that which is frightening,
that which is neither comfortable nor easy
has to be done
or we sit and shrivel up
and die of stagnation,
boredom or cancer
am i practicing what i preach?
somewhat,
sometimes,
some of me.
do i feel fit to point others in the direction
i know intrinsically we all need to take?
yes i do.
for knowing,
for showing,
for telling,
can be done, even if one isn’t
fully living what they know.
i find myself tired so much of the time.
tired of these old voices,
tired of these old beliefs,
about self,
about others
about the way things are
yet don’t need to be
all i offer up to the world is a knowing
a certain hard won wisdom
that this can and will change
that this is moving is the direction
of my most optimistic moments
of my most inclusive ideals
of my most wildest dreams
this is what keeps me here,
this is what keeps me keeping going
and not simply falling into an abyss
of my own creation
of my own destruction
i am life
i am love
i am i am
thanks to the bird lady