Everything is Nothing but Everything

i oscillate
between 10
and 50
i oscillate

i am timeless
wisdom
i am
nothingness

the dysfunctional self
the learned self
the self that clings to self

how does one become selfless?
how does one release ones grip
on a false sense of self?

we were taught to identify
we were taught to become
we were taught so much
that has perpetuated our
separateness

and while i can know this
from deep within

i still feel stuck
i still feel frozen

by what i perceived as my abandonment
by others
and continually
by myself

the struggle to forgive
me
the struggle to accept
them

i see it clearly
in one moment
i fight against it
the next

trying to integrate
all this knowing
trying to remember
all this forgetting