coming to a close, almost finished, soon to be done, just a little more,
last week of school!!!!!
now to bring this to my daily awareness.
disconnect
uncertainty
anxiety
depression
abuse
apathy
criminality
pain
frustration
anger
hurt
isolation
dispair
distrust
fear
abandonment
suicide
paranoia
low self-esteem
pessimism
patience
perseverance
focus
desire
optimism
love
joy
belief
balance
one moment
one breath
at a
time
stepping into,
that which is difficult, that which is frightening,
that which is neither comfortable nor easy
has to be done
or we sit and shrivel up
and die of stagnation,
boredom or cancer
am i practicing what i preach?
somewhat,
sometimes,
some of me.
do i feel fit to point others in the direction
i know intrinsically we all need to take?
yes i do.
for knowing,
for showing,
for telling,
can be done, even if one isn’t
fully living what they know.
i find myself tired so much of the time.
tired of these old voices,
tired of these old beliefs,
about self,
about others
about the way things are
yet don’t need to be
all i offer up to the world is a knowing
a certain hard won wisdom
that this can and will change
that this is moving is the direction
of my most optimistic moments
of my most inclusive ideals
of my most wildest dreams
this is what keeps me here,
this is what keeps me keeping going
and not simply falling into an abyss
of my own creation
of my own destruction
i am life
i am love
i am i am
Tomorrow Never Knows, The Beatles