so after an initial run of posts i fell off the map.

but as of yesterday i finally feel that i have come out of a 6 month depression.

i am going to attempt to keep grounded, as my most recent psychedelic freakout proved how far i really have strayed.  tai chi, yoga, acupuncture, st. john’s wort, guipiwan, a cleaned up diet and no coffee, drugs or alcohol all appear to be the proper prescription for keeping me in a better state of mind.

after arriving home this morning at 7am, i realized that last night i did something i don’t believe i have ever done before.  i spent 9 hours in the company of some very wonderful, rather tripped out folks and i didn’t even have a hit off a passing pipe.   damn, i think i was the only sober person there.

and i feel good, a little tired as S sleeps on my couch but ultimately good.

and that’s not something i have been able to say for a while.

with the passing of the full moon i am starting to feel like i have reemerged from an overwhelming darkness.
with it’s passing we are finally half way into November, ending a phase that started last year.  on November 12  we entered into the 6th day of the Mayan calendar which is a time of flowering and renaissance.

so i gave thanks to all the wonderful people in my life that have helped me get through this most recent darkness.  because even when i isolate myself, you have a knack of phoning dropping by or emailing at just the right moment and giving me love and support when i most need it.

i love you all with all my being

peace and love,

bryant