i have been flinching
tripping on fear
my whole life
afraid of even
knowing my own
history of abuse
hiding in pseudo
romantic relationships
with my fellow
shut downs
wondering why
they don’t show up
and not knowing how to
myself
as children we learned
that we were
somehow broken
somehow wrong
and where others
left their childish things
i’ve brought mine along
for this ride through hell
wearing it as my crown of thorns
more self harm
more dead eyes
not sure
where i
go
from
here
Everything is Nothing but Everything 